yun lang!

i really love this guy‘s sense of humor! 😀

some quotes on intimacy, falling in love and moving on

i know i keep mentioning it but i really love tumblr. i’m getting introduced to some amazingly creative artists and i’m discovering more authors, books and quotes that i really like. i love the reblog feature so my own tumblr is just a collection of photographs, quotes, videos and songs that i like. however, here are a few that i’d like to share with you.

“She says, I loved you so much once. I loved you to the point of distraction. I did. More than anything in the whole wide world. Imagine that. What a laugh that is now. Can you imagine it? We were so intimate once upon a time I can’t believe it now. I think that’s the strangest thing of all now. The memory of being that intimate with somebody else.”
~ Raymond Carver, Intimacy

this hits home because it’s so true. it’s odd how nonchalant one can act around a person they’ve been intimate with. i know because i’m there right now. i still have flashbacks of what we once shared and i find myself hitting my head against my hand or a book just to get the images out of my head. and yet when i’m face-to-face with him, i act as though nothing happened between us, as though that relationship did not exist at all. someday i feel that it’ll all become a distant memory and the thought of being that intimate with somebody else, specifically him, will just be a fleeting thought. should that thought be comforting? because right now, i just feel sad, someday i’ll just be a fleeting thought to him too and the memory of our intimacy will just be a memory.

We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget. We forget the loves and the betrayals alike, forget what we whispered and what we screamed, forgot who we were.
~ Joan Didion

Yes, eventually we all forget.

playlist: elephants by rachael yamagata

Elephants
Rachael Yamagata

If the elephants have past lives, yet are destined to always remember,
it’s no wonder how they scream,
like you and I, they must have some temper.
And I am dreaming of them on the plains, dirtying up their beds,
watching for some kind of rain to cool their hot heads.
And how dare that you send me that card when I’m doing all that I can do.
You are forcing me to remember when all I want is to just forget you.
If the tiger shall protect her young, then tell me how did you slip by.
All my instincts have failed me for once — I must have somehow slept the whole night.

And I am dreaming of them with their kill, tearing it all apart,
blood dripping from their lips, and teeth sinking in too hard.
And how dare that you say you will call, when you know I need some peace of mind..
If you had to take sides with the animals, won’t you do it with one who is kind?

If the hawks in the trees need the dead, if you’re living you don’t stand a chance.
You can lie there and say you are fed, but there are only two ends to this dance.
You can flee with your wounds just in time, or lie there as he feeds,
watching yourself ripped to shreds and laughing as you bleed.

So for those of you falling in love, keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right.
Throw yourself in the midst of danger, but keep one eye open at night.

~

beautiful song. beautiful voice. beautiful video. just beautiful. i fell-in-love with this song the instant i heard it. everything about it is just beautiful: the imagery, the metaphors, the melody and the message. the last two lines are perfect! ❤

weekend update, 2008.09.18

it’s been another activity filled weekend for me…

Friday, 2008.09.12: UNO Hottest Girls Party and Ascend Gimik

a few of my teammates and i attended the UNO Hottest Girls party at A Venue last friday in the hopes of seeing some hot women in skimpy outfits strutting their stuff. we were disappointed though. the event wasn’t prepared or conceptualized that well. we were supposed to go to the Gossipboys Pool Party but we opted not to anymore because the venue was far away. we ended up going to Ascend instead. i really am not a club girl anymore. i just get weirded out by how young and wild everyone seems to be. haaay… paminsan, manang na talaga ako. :))

Saturday, 2008.09.13: Ultimate Training at CSA and a nine-hour mall tambay

after turning in early saturday morning from ascend, we headed to CSA for ultimate training. there were only less than ten of us who showed up for that training so wendell just taught us how the proper form of throwing a backhand and forehand. we called it a day when it started raining down hard after which we headed to rockwell for lunch at banana leaf. i was supposed to go home after lunch but for reasons that are too embarrassing to be explained here i stayed on to hang out with jc, joy and jo till 9pm.

during our tambay at coffee bean, derek (ramsay) actually came over to our table to talk ultimate with mr. “macho ako” jc. needless to say, joy, jo and i were all dumbstruck grinning fools who couldn’t get a straight sentence into the conversation. he even sat on the the arm of my armchair. joy and jo said i was sitting so stiffly after he did that. despite the fact that i get to see him almost every weekend during tournaments, i still get dumbstruck because he’s so hot. hahaha! 😛

Sunday, 2008.09.14: Malakas at Maganda, Day 1 and Bern’s Dad’s Birthday Party

yey! it’s the all-men’s and all-women’s league again! the all-women’s league is really my favorite league because we gals get to play some fun, relatively stress-free ultimate. it really is different when a game is testosterone-free. our first game was against the SP girl team, Slush, which we lost by universal point, 8-7. we didn’t feel bad after the loss though because all of us stepped up in that game. there we were, 10 out-of-shape yuppies running after 16 really fit mountaineers. i really believe we could’ve won that game, we just lacked the athleticism and endurance to finish it off. but as i said, none of us felt bad about the loss because we really weren’t expecting that good of an outcome. our second game was against the women of Ultimate Warriors, which we won 13-1. we played a bit too lax in that game. it was a bad game for us… bad throws, bad catches, bad cutting and bad defense. i think that we can make it all the way to the finals if we’re consistent in the way we play. =)

joy and i didn’t join the after-game dinner with toda anymore because we had to head back to makati to shower and change for bern’s dad’s birthday party at her place…

so there’s my update of last weekend. it’s a bit late but i’ve been busy with work. 😉

playlist: so you can cry by ne-yo

So You Can Cry
Ne-Yo

Life is long
There will be pain but life goes on
With everyday a brand new song
But if you’d rather stay at home
Let me do you a favor.

I’ll ask the sun to shine away from you today so you can cry
(If that’s what you want alright)
I’ll ask the clouds to bring the rain for you today so you can cry
(If that’s what you want alright)
If that’s what you want alright

~

i love the sentiment of this song. a guy trying to console a brokenhearted girl first by telling her it isn’t worth it to mope around but then also telling her that he’d ask the sun to shine away and the clouds to bring the rain so that she could cry. there even isn’t any indication if he’s interested in her romantically just an assurance from him that she’ll be okay. it’s such a sweet, sweet song.