and for some more camera lust

gah! my camera lust is getting stronger (and more expensive) by the minute. my flickr and ebay page is always open nowadays. i keep on watching a lot of cameras on ebay but i haven’t bought a new one since my pentacon six purchase 2 months ago. yes, i’ve been good. 😀

here are a few cameras i’m currently drooling over…

hasselblad 500 c/m
another medium format slr. i ♥ medium format.

pics by potopoto53age

pics by edwardolive

damage to my wallet: $500 – $4,000

olympus pen f
this is a half-frame slr with 20 interchangeable lenses. cool diba? half-frame na pwede palitan yung lens!!!

 
pics by TommyOshima

damage to my wallet: $200 – $1,500

waah!!! i need a sugar daddy!!! hehehe. joke only! :))

there are so many inspiring pics in flickr!!! i wanna start taking beautiful pics. so far most of my pics have been “chamba” pics eh. :))

my next goals for my new hobby are:

• run a test roll on my belomo auto villa
• E-6 processing for various slide films (just to see how they look when processed correctly)
• diana+ pinhole
• use my fed3b again (i’ve neglected this camera)
• try the ASA800 film on my pentacon baby
• name my cameras. hehehe.

playlist: soulmate

Soulmate
Natasha Bedingfield

Incompatible, it don’t matter though
‘cos someone’s bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You’re not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you’re in disguise

Who doesn’t long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I’m on my own
If there’s a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There’s enough for everyone
But I’m still waiting in line

Who doesn’t long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I’m on my own
If there’s a soulmate for everyone

If there’s a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They’re all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn’t long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I’m on my own
If there’s a soulmate for everyone

~

this song evokes the confusion and desperation that comes with being lonely alone in the world. beautiful song.

weekend update, 2008.06.23

i spent the weekend pretty much doing nothing. we had a pretty strong typhoon and it didn’t stop raining from saturday night to monday morning. i worked from home today because i was too lazy to brave the commute to work. hehehe. so i’ve spent the entire day yesterday and today, practically in front of the tv. :))

north & south

my sister has been bugging me to watch this bbc tv series and sunday’s continuous downpour was the perfect excuse for me to sit down to this 4-hour mini-movie. it’s a period love story set in the industrial revolution (i think). the plot isn’t new: proud, self-made man falls in love with a prejudiced independent young woman almost like pride & prejudice. but when has a familiar plot ever stopped me from loving a love story?! i loved it so much that i wanted to watch it again the instant it ended! (once again, my sister is shaking her head and thinking… i told you so!)

this is my absolute favorite scene of the movie! *spoiler alert* this is part of the final scene so don’t click play if you plan to watch it in it’s entirety.

this just makes me want to start singing will someone ever look at me that way? from yentl.

Look at how he looks at her
Will someone ever I look at me that way-
Full of all the feelings and the soft
Unspoken words that lovers say?

oh, and that kiss!!! i’d give a whole lot to be kissed like that!!! *sigh*

shanghai ultimate ’08

astig ang team pilipinas!!! galing!!!

hmm… when will i play this well kaya? libre naman mangarap diba? :))

film love

i finally got to do an inventory of all my films and cameras last weekend. i think i see what papi is talking about now, that if i do reach the Php 100,000 mark on my camera and film expenses that he’d have to start looking for a boyfriend for me. ahihihi… i didn’t realize i had this much film. :)) but i do love film photography. i’m no way near becoming remotely good yet but it’s so much more fun and fulfilling to me than digital photography. hopefully someday i’ll be able to visualize and capture perfect moments on film. 😀

i’ve been sadly neglecting this blog…

…but i’ve been kinda sorta medyo busy these past few weeks

so here’s a super short update on what’s happened…

subic getaway

the perfect long weekend… a road trip to subic for sun, sand, ultimate frisbee, lots of picture taking, swimming, drinking, dancing and bonding!!! how i wish it were always this easy to get away from the hustle and bussle of the city!!!

check out my flickr for my pics from that weekend. 😀

rissa’s birthday celebration

on my frustrated dreams

i watched lea salonga’s concert sunday night on tv (because i was too cheap and tamad to watch it live). once again, as with every other time i hear lea sing, i was filled with the biggest sense of longing to quit my job and pursue my dream of becoming a broadway star. i can hear some of you now saying that it isn’t too late. truth is, although i would love to be a broadway star i’m just too shy and vocally untrained to be one. i did make a promise to myself to attend a workshop one summer though. my goal for 2009! 😀

nadal love

nadal won over djokovic in the stella artois finals! yey! actually, i would have been happy if either of them won because i have huge crushes on both of them.

on becoming an ultimate machine

wendell, one of the best ultimate players in the philippines, has been really generous in extending his help in training my team. so now instead of “light” trainings on tuesdays and thursdays, we have very intense and tiring sessions. and when i say intense, i mean intense! kamusta naman sa sangkatutak na sprints with 10 pushups for each drop of the disc?! :S but i’m glad because my forehand is back and my endurance is improving a whole lot. i can’t wait for the next league!!!

a work dilemma

i have to choice to move to another module in my department. thing is, i feel so unexperienced and i fear failure. one of my officemates told me there’s nothing to fear though. so i might be shifting modules soon. 😉

so that’s it so far i guess. i’ll try to write a better update next week. hehehe. 😀

it never takes too long*

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.
~ New Moon, Stephanie Meyer

I cried again last night, over you. It was unexpected but while reading Stephanie Meyer’s narrative on heartbreak, the walls I’ve tried so hard to keep up broke down and gave way to tears. It was as if a part of my heart (and my brain) was shouting, I remember! No matter how whole I’ve felt in the past couple of months, I’m broken. I’m actually broken.

Don’t worry, you haven’t cause me new pain but I would be lying if I said that I’ve completely forgotten the pain you once caused me. I’m glad you’ve stayed away. I’m also proud of myself that I was able to keep myself away despite the fact that I’ve missed you.

I’ve kept myself preoccupied so much recently that somehow the pain I felt took a back seat. But while reading this book, I suddenly remembered how painful it all was. Maybe I cried because the pain is still a bit too fresh. I’d rather that be the reason then the fact that I might still care for you more than I’m allowed to.

I think I’ve been doing a good job in moving on. I guess, it really just takes time. I’m beginning to wonder… Is it always going to be like this? Everytime a relationship ends, is it going to hurt this much? And is the hurt going to last this long? And is it really worth all the effort?

It’s hard to keep believing in love when happy endings only seem to exist in books and movies. Yes, I know a number of couples who are very much happily-in-love. But I guess it’s hard to believe when you, yourself, have never experienced that kind of bliss yet.

Sometimes I wish I’m not such a hopeless romantic and that love is something I don’t long for so badly. *sigh* Someday tish, someday. *sigh*

*line from Gravity by Sara Bareilles