i’m 24. one more year to a quarter life crisis. hehehe.

here’s to the year that was!

i worked. i danced. i sang. i let go of my first love.  i played ultimate, sometimes well, sometimes not. i went to boracay twice. i went skinny dipping.  i partied. i got so drunk i forgot what i did the night before. i got so drunk i threw a brat attack. i had my hair cut really short. i gained weight. i lost weight. i climbed up hero’s peak in the great wall of china. i got into lomography. i bought lots of cameras. i’ve taken lots of pictures. i’ve learned to drive properly. i fell in love. i wrote love letters. i got my heart broken. i took risks and fell flat on my face but i picked myself up. i’ve strengthened old friendships and made new ones.

all-in-all it’s been a full-packed year for me, a year of firsts. but it’s been fun! i hope this next year will turn out to be as much of a roller coaster ride as the last one. life would be so boring if it isn’t! 😉

weekend update, 2007.12.24

it feels good to be home.

i’m in davao!!! weeee!!! i’ll bring your suha, mangosteen and durian requests when i get back.

camera therapy

despite the promise to myself that i wouldn’t buy any new cameras, i ended up buying a fisheye2 and ringflash. naka-promo package kasi eh. ;)) yeah, what an excuse noh?! i’m making another promise. no more camera buying unless it’s an LCA. promise, i’ll really save for this na! anyway, i’m really happy that the ringflash has an adaptor for the diana. now, i can use diana even at night. so excited!

here’s the stash of cameras i brought home:

MeRrY cHrIsTmAs!

christmas has always been a lonely experience for me. yeah yeah, i know i have family and friends but having been single since birth, i’m still yet to experience a christmas with that special someone. this christmas is turning out to be one of the hardest so far as i’m smack in the middle of mending a broken heart.

yes, pathetic as it may sound, i still find myself crying at random moments in the day. it’s okay though, no one dies from a broken heart and whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. no matter how many you’ll-be-okay’s, he-doesn’t-deserve-you’s, and what not i receive, it still doesn’t take the pain out of rejection.

i wrote him a letter telling him how i felt. i gave it to him when he brought me home, thursday night. i was so tired that i fell asleep as soon as i got in my room. he tried to call me minutes later which meant that he had already read my letter. but then, i was asleep so i didn’t get to answer the phone. so far, he hasn’t tried to talk to me about it yet. so i guess, that’s that.

what a way to celebrate christmas, right?! good thing, the new year is around the corner. 😀

playlist: 2007.12.20

i started the week out listening to i-hate-love-so-please-fuck-off music. although the songs were a bit harsh, they did help lift my spirits. but then i listened to let go by frou frou and all of a sudden i’m in an optimistic mood again. there’s beauty in the breakdown. such a beautiful thought.

1. rootless tree by damien rice

what i want from us
is learn to let go
we fake a fuss
and fracture the times

2. call me when you’re sober

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I?
You were never mine

So don’t cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
Don’t lie to me
Just get your things
I’ve made up your mind

3. sick cycle carousel

‘Cause i tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I can get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I tried to beat this

So when will this end
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won’t stop
Till I step down from this for good

4. let go by frou frou 

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it’s alright
’cause there’s beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it’s so amazing here
it’s alright
’cause there’s beauty in the breakdown

comment lang, ang ganda ng boses ng soloist dito. ganda!

weekend update, 2007.12.18

jello shots 

weee! i know how to make jello shots! and they’re not bad. sabi nga ni kim parang dessert lang. hehehe. 😉

eyeglasses

i’m wearing glasses again. i had my eyes checked last sunday and the doctor said my astigmatism was getter greater so now i have to wear glasses at all times and not just when in front of a computer. i didn’t know how blurry my vision was becoming till i got these new glasses. apparently, the colors that i was seeing were already muted. :S

joga oldies christmas party

i had two parties last saturday: the joga oldies christmas party and the toda christmas party. so sad that i had to stay just a short time at the joga oldies party. hindi ko na nga naabutan si melai, jencarps, taty&marcus, etc. 😥 buti nalang may inuman tomorrow night! 😀

toda christmas party

after the joga oldies christmas party, my mode of transportation to the toda christmas party was by taxi (what’s new?). it’s been pretty hard getting cabs nowadays because of the holiday rush. so there i was standing in shaw boulevard carrying a cake in one arm and two bottles of vodka in a bag slung over my shoulder. finally, a cab took notice of me. i had to agree to paying him 50 more to bring me to bok&sym’s place but i readily agreed because no other cabs were free. anyway, when i got in the cab driver told me that the reason he stopped for me was that he thought i was pregnant. :)) grabe reaction ko! hehehe. manong, hindi ah! buksan niyo pa ilaw! ohwell, at least sinakay niya ako.

my thoughts for a penny

so fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
and all we’ve been through
i said leave it, leave it, leave it
it’s nothing to you
and if you hate me, hate me, hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out of this hell when you’re around
~ Rootless Tree, Damien Rice

because i couldn’t resist

sorry, for the late update. medyo nakakatamad mag-update ng blog with everything that’s been happening lately. i’m so looking forward to going home to davao this saturday! 🙂

holler if you want suha! hehehe. 😉

i get this way every dec 13

wistful

this time, i know i’m over. i have feelings for someone else. too bad he doesn’t feel the same way about me. oh well, time heals all wounds right?

from http://www.stickgal.blogspot.com/

well, maybe not always. :))

HaPpY bIrThDaY aNtOn!!! :*>:D<:*