playlist: kerrigan-lowdermilk

i am starting to fall in love with modern musical theater. seriously, deeply, completely in-love with it. i’m already obsessed with bare and i love you because which are beautiful plays. but after hearing a friend sing one of their songs, i haven’t been able to stop listening to kerrigan-lowdermilk songs. i’m finding it hard to describe how completely sated my soul feels when i listen to beautiful songs, most especially songs from musicals. ao why don’t you just give these a listen and i dare you not to fall-in-love as well.

Two Strangers – Morgan Karr with Jay A. Johnson and Matt Doyle

And then it’s over.
Just another mistake done over.
There’s no evidence here,
No mark or picture frame.
Just a name in a cell phone,
Stuck in my head,
Smelling boy in my empty twin bed or maybe I’m just conjuring some romance I read.

Run Away With Me – Michael Arden

Run away with me.
Let me be your ride out of town.
Let me be the place that you hide.
We can make our lives on the go.
Run away with me.

Not A Love Story – Phoebe Strole

It’s not a love story.
It’s not a coming of age.
It’s not the kind of thing you put into a play.
It’s just a small story.
Just two friends all grown up.
It happens.
It happens.
It happens one day.

playlist: bare

let me start by clueing you in on what i’ve been up to this past couple of months. early april, i finally stopped procrastinating and decided to take that first step to “living my dream” by signing up for a musical theater workshop. i’ve been trying to keep it on the down low since i don’t want a lot of my friends showing up for our showcase presentation come end of may. there’s so much i want to share about my experience so far, but i’m reserving another post for that (and hopefully, i’d have the time and energy to write it).

during one of the bonding sessions i spent with my classmates, we watched some of their old productions. one was bare, which they did last year. it’s about two gay high school students and their struggles at their private, catholic boarding school. to be honest, i wasn’t expecting much when i downloaded it out of curiosity. it took me by surprise when i instantly fell-in-love with it. here are some songs from the off-broadway recording…

you and i

You take my hand leaving me breathless
Feel the beat of my racing heart so you’ll understand
And know why we whisper in hallways
I’ll be with you always
Running together, forever you and I

best kept secret

I know this world can have a place for us
If we just try to find a way to trust that time will be kind
In a fantasy I dream, awake, but reality is give and take
You take what you can, you give time a chance
We have to wait until the world is fast asleep
I’ll wipe away your doubt
Show you why we keep
The best kept secret
The best kept secret…of all

touch my soul

I let them in, we make some noise
They let themselves out, thats their choice
Boys will be boys…
The phone won’t ring and I become some anicdote
And though I’ve had my fun, it gets lonely

But then came your kiss
And all I was missing was there in your eyes
Your lonely blue eyes
So please, say you’ll stay
Say you’ll never go away
My discarded heart has finally found a home
I know its love… you touch my soul

once in a while you listen to song that touches you in a way no other song has. i was trying to hold back tears when i first listened to this one. needless to say, i related so much to her situation. you know, a girl standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her. hahaha! 😛 seriously though, ivy is one of my dream roles now.

once upon a time

Once upon a time
I first held your hand
And love was not a crime
In a private world where
You said ‘don’t look down’
But then I did and now you’re lost above me

bare

here’s the torrent. i highly recommend downloading it and listening to the entire thing. i’m sre you’ll fall-in-love with it like i did.

playlist: Rent

i was finally able to watch this movie last week. i’ve had it in my dvd queue for a while now but i wasn’t in the mood to watch it till last week. i should’ve watched it sooner!!! some songs from the soundtrack have been playing on a loop in my ipod since then. i just can’t get enough of them!

i really truly love broadway! as usual, every ounce of my body is once again yearning to drop everything and find some way to become a broadway actress. but i’ve already faced the fact that that’s one dream that’ll always remain a dream.

here are some songs from the movie/broadway play that i’d like to share with you…

light my candle

hindi naman siya malandi noh? 😉 i love this because it’s cute and flirty! like me! hahaha.

i’ll cover you

so with a thousand sweet kisses, I’ll cover you.

Awwww…

another day

there’s only us.
there’s only this.
forget regret or life you’re sure to miss.
no other road.
no other way.
no day but today!

there’s only now.
there’s only here.
give in to love or life in fear.
no other path.
no other way.
no day but today!

my favorite song from the soundtrack. i included this clip from the broadway play. in my opinion the best thing about broadway/musicals are songs like this where characters answer each other in song. simply genius! by the way, this is also sung in the end of the movie as…

Finale B

seasons of love

525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes – how do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.
In 525,600 minutes – how do you measure a year in the life?
How about love? How about love? How about love? Measure in love.
Seasons of love.

what’s a rent playlist without this song?

PS: it’s so me to break my writing hiatus by posting about a broadway musical/movie. hahaha! 😉

weekend update, 2008.09.09

west side story

truth be told, i wasn’t expecting much out of this production. not because i was undermining the Philippine production but just because the movie was absolutely perfect for me. it still is. however, STAGES production of west side story isn’t bad at all! in fact, i was pretty impressed by the overall production. the set was designed very well considering the different locations the scenes are set in. the lead actors, Christian Bautista as Tony and Joanna Ampil as Maria, were pretty good. the dancing was based on the movie and yet it was pulled off superbly. but i guess what suprised me was how very good the supporting actors were. Anita played by Rowena Vilar was just amazing! her’s was the best performance for me. if you can still find tickets to this play then i suggest you watch it. 😉

yes, another booksale!

powerbooks just recently concluded it’s book sale last month. however, i wasn’t able to buy all the titles i wanted since most of them were out of stock already. now, national book store has a sale till the end of the month and i was only too glad to find some of the books on my list. i’ve bought 3 already…

 

and i have a few more i’d like to buy before the sale ends. i really am having fun reviving my love for reading. i just hope my wallet can take the damage. hahaha!

the tale of two parties

i attended two birthday parties last saturday night and ended up disgustingly wasted by morning that i don’t really remember anything much from the second party anymore. this isn’t the first time i’ve woken up with a lack of memory of the previous night, but it hasn’t happened in a long time. i believe the last time i was this drunk was in boracay earlier this year.

the first party i went to was a suprise birthday party for yug. i started out with one san mig light then they started serving this tasty concoction of what seemed like gin and pineapple juice that was supposed to be drank as shots. after joy and i had a shot, we thought it’d be fine to drink it through a straw. hahaha! so we poured some in our glasses and proceeded to make it a ladies drink. figures, that i’d get pissed drunk right? anyway, i also had two shots of whiskey, one shot of vodka and joy and i drank one beer straight up. by the time we left yug’s party a few minutes before 12midnight i was already giggling like crazy.

still completely sober in these first two pictures

my first shot of whiskey in the first pic and melai and me pouting in the second pic

which leads me to the second party… normann’s supposed “debut”. hahaha! i remember getting there. i also remember a shot of gin (probably) because i wasn’t in hippie attire. then i also remember a bottle of red horse. after that, i don’t remember much. i have pictures on my camera from that party but i don’t even remember taking out my camera. i do remember the vomiting though and the voices of the friends who helped me. suprisingly i wasn’t feeling so bad when i woke up but i knew i made an embarrassing spectacle of myself during my puking incident. plus i was sure i acted like a brat, like i normally do when i get super drunk. hahaha! argh, kakahiya!

ian and me in the first pic. jo and me with birthday boy normann in the second pic. both from my camera, neither of which i remember taking or being taken. 😛

yeah, i’m practicing melai’s pout a lot. first pic with gb. second pic with rissa and joy. pictures are from my camera again.

first pic showing me giving rox a big wet kiss on the cheek. a group pic for the second pic. pictures from roxy’s camera.

apparently, i smoked that cigar i was holding on the first pic. and one thing that struck me in the second pic was… wow, my tan looks really nice! hahaha!!! 😛

as i said in my previous post, as much as i’d like to swear off drinking i don’t think i’m ready to give it up yet. so i guess, i’ll just have to do better in pacing next time. wish me luck as i have three parties this coming weekend. hahahahaha! 😛

i love the rain, really i do

i know i’ve mentioned how much i love the rain before, but i want to say it again. actually, i want to mention it everytime it rains. last night, i got caught in the rain without an umbrella. i actually have an extra one in the office but i was too lazy to bring it with me home despite the sound of thunder and the flashes of lighting that were obvious signs of rain. i walked to greenbelt with a slight drizzle but as soon as i got to greenbelt it started pouring hard. i passed time looking at books in national book store but decided to go home eventually. i could’ve bought an umbrella in sm but decided not to because i assumed that it wouldn’t be raining anymore when i got to quezon avenue station. but boy, was i wrong! hahaha. it was still raining when i got to quezon avenue which made me think, i’ll just geet a cab when i get down. but i wasn’t expecting the number of people waiting for a ride either. normally this would’ve pissed me off but i was too entranced by the rain to be mad. i had to take three jeepney rides home, one first to pantranco, another to banawe then the last to get me to my house. needless to say, i was pretty soaked when i got home but i took a hot shower immediately. i actually thought i’d be sick today but there isn’t even a slight sign of colds. lucky me, i guess. i really enjoyed my little rain adventure last night but next time i’ll probably bring an umbrella. ;))

there’s a fine, fine line

There’s a Fine, Fine Line
Avenue Q 

There’s a fine, fine line
between a lover, and a friend.
There’s a fine, fine line
between reality, and pretend;
And you never know ’til you reach the top
if it was worth the uphill climb.

There’s a fine, fine line
between love,
and a waste of time

There’s a fine, fine line
between a fairy tale, and a lie.
And there’s a fine, fine line
between “you’re wonderful” and “goodbye”.
I guess if someone doesn’t love you back
it isn’t such a crime

But there’s a fine, fine line
between love,
and a waste of your time

And I don’t have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don’t think that you even know what you’re looking for.
For my own sanity I’ve got to close the door
And walk away…
Oh…

There’s a fine, fine line
between together,
and not.
And there’s a fine, fine line
between what you wanted,
and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want
while you’re still in your prime.

There’s a fine, fine line
between love,
and a waste of time.

yes, this song hit home. it is true though. why enter a relationship which you know would be a waste of time? i think deep inside we all know when a relationship is for keeps or just for now. and yet we still end up forming attachments which we know wouldn’t last. and we end up hurting ourselves in the process.

meet a guy. feel that spark. get to know each other. get closer. and closer. fall-in-love. get to know him more. fall more in-love. get to know him more. fall a bit out-of-love. fight over big stuff. fall a bit more out-of-love. fight over small stuff. fall out of love. burn pictures. return gifts. drink hard. swear off men forever. meet another guy. it’s a vicious cycle.

i think what makes it harder is the fact that we all try to be someone else when we meet someone we like. we try to be the perfect person for them so that they’d fall in love right back. but then, when there already is love, suddenly you’re suprised to learn that you don’t know the other person at all.

why is it so hard to just be yourself? is it because we’re scared that if we show who we really are then the other person won’t love us back? maybe that’s it. we’re scared of rejection. who isn’t?

in a world where technology makes everything easier, even communication, how can we be sure if anyone is truly honest with us anymore?